Negative out, Postive in.

So over this break I've done a lot of reflection on my life, including all the people surrounding me in my life. I've come to realize that there are a lot of people that I would just rather not surround myself with anymore. People that don't respect what I want to do with my life. People that could care less about anyone but themself. Generally, just people that are down right negative. I'm going to try to remove as much of the negativity from my life as possible.
I found that life is really only what you want it to be. If you want to be wallowing in self-pity then you're going to be doing just that. Well I'm done with that.
It takes a toll on the body to do that.

It's weird but I want to start over. I'm going to strip my house and clean all of the clutter out of my life. Get rid of things that aren't needed and also get rid of things that have negative memories attached to them. It's weird to think that I have all this stuff and don't use a whole lot of it, but a good portion of it definitely has memories attached and that's the only reason why I'm holding onto it.

Anyway.

On a different note. I drove out to Potsdam yesterday to get my transcripts to make sure that I will have all my school stuff taken care of this semester.
OH. that's the other thing. I NEED to be better with my money. seriously. it's disgusting. I've done nothing but throw it all away soooo quickly it's outrageous.
I'm going to start limiting myself to going out to eat only on the weekends. Meaning. no picking up food for lunch while I'm at work anymore. The only thing that I'm going to give myself le-way on is coffee breaks. I will spend $2 a day on a coffee at the store. that's it. no snacks. If I want snacks I'm going to start bringing them to work with me. I think doing that will make me MUCH happier and healthier. Rather than going to the store and picking up a bag of chips or pretzels or something I'll bring peppers, or celery or something like that to work.

Another thing I kind of want to just briefly touch on in this post... I've gone to see Avatar twice now. I've really enjoyed it both times, and honestly I think it is a reallllly moving film. I mean it definitely hit home with me. A few of my friends that saw it though only really thought about the silly things in the movie that weren't the actual message. I know that my cousin, Hannah, and I are on the same page about this movie though. I really want to work on my spirituality. And no. I'm not talking about God. I don't believe in all that Christian stuff. If you do, great. but, I don't.
I believe that there is a higher power that makes things happen for specific reasons that we might not know about. Sometimes those things might suck. BUT what it's really all about is what you do for yourself. How can you make yourself better and also more aware of everything that around you.

I might go into hippie talk for a minute, but think about. Really just think. Everything on this planet has a purpose. NOTHING is purposeless. And if there is anything that doesn't have a purpose it is something that is man made and completely unnatural.

I'm not saying get rid of ALL technology and I'm not saying go live in the woods, but I am saying that I think that the human race needs to get back to basics a little more. I think that with all this technology comes cost. And with cost come greed. And with greed comes hate. And hate is not something that people want in their lives.

Anyway...

I think that's enough ranting for the day. I have to go and bring my transcripts to Montpelier now. uggg... another 3 hours out of my day...


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