so much has happened

so 2010. i commend you. you've brought me such happiness so far that i'm almost a little bit worried about the future of 2010... like... with all this good stuff going on it makes me wonder when it's all going to come crashing down.

but for now i'm not thinking about that.

there have been some really crazy things that have happened with my friend ashley as well but i think that she's the kind of person that needs to learn by doing especially when it comes to relationships and if that means that she goes through a rough patch i'll be there for her and probably get annoyed because she talks about the situation so much but i will be there for her because i know that she'd do the same thing for me.

as for my life. i have a small crush on a boy. :)
also i'm looking for a new job. i'm super sick of working at immigration mostly because sitting at a desk all day is not my cup of tea so i've been emailing horse barns to see if anyone needs help at all.

pretty much i just want to do something where i will feel accomplished with my life and right now in the position i'm at i definitely don't feel accomplished.

it's actually hard for me to understand how anyone feels accomplished doing that job...i mean i guess you are seriously helping to better someone else's life by going over their cases but it's hard for me to even think that those people are real people because some of the situations seem so surreal. i like a much more personal atmosphere where i know the people that i'm helping. Which is why teaching was always so appealing to me but i don't really want to teach in a school though because i don't want to be limited. which is why i'm thinking that working and teaching at a barn would be most beneficial to my mental and physical health. i would get to be working outside and walking around all day long and i wouldn't even have time to think about anything negative unless it pertained to the barn because when i am at the barn i literally am so focused on barn things that its almost as though i lose touch with reality. it's very strange to think about. but it's awesome.